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SOOOO...here i'm gonna talk about my life, and how the page is doing.

just in case...i'm not ok mentally ok?? Something is WRONG with me, I know it. And you should also know it. So yeah. You're warned if I say something...wild

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5/6/25

Oh. Good. Lord.

So some days ago, this irrespectful boy we'll call Riverfanboy, asked for me to give him the homework. Irrespectfully. Like he always does. So I gave him the homework anyway, and then, the next day this guy asks me:

Why can't I see your answers?

He ALWAYS asks me for answers.

So, I decided I was done with him, and also to have a laugh, I told him:

So you can use your brain. I know it's hard but you can do it!

At first, I, of course after hearing about all my classmates reputation of bullying and beating people up, was kind of afraid. But it wasn't a big deal was it?

OF COURSE IT WASN'T. BECAUSE THEY TREAT ME AND K WORSE. If you remember what Redgirl called me a bitch...

But of course, SOMEONE (Redgirl who actually from now on since I hate her a fucking lot will be named tomatogirl) made it a big deal.

She was going all OHHH DID YOU SEE WHAT K SAID TO YOUUU? until I said: It wasn't K, it was me.

OH, SO NOW THAT I SAID IT WAS ME IT SUDDENLY WAS A BIG DEAL.

BUT YOU CAN'T SAY THAT TO SOMEONE! WE ALLL LEARN IN A DIFFERENT PACE (girl learning and asking for answers aren't the same thing) IF YOU'RE GOING TO SAY THAT, ATLEAST SAY IT TO HIS FACE(I would, you're welcome)

So, the teacher stopped her and said she'd talk to me later. Ok then, I don't mind, let me tell her EVERYTHING that keeps happening in this little classroom.

So we talked. I told her everything, how they discriminate us for how we dress, my friend for her sexuality even tho Tomatogirl herself is a lesbian, and how Riverfanboy keeps asking for my answers on a bad way.

And how did she react???

Oh I don't blame you, I also explode on my coworkers from time to time. And also they're pretty...bad.

HAH! GOT YA BITCHES, THE TEACHER IS OBVIOUSLY ON MY SIDE!

And that's where it ended, or atleast, where I thought it would end.

So, I talked to my therapist about this. She told me we need to channel my anger to my classmates to something. We'll talk about it next session. Oh and I left the group.

OH GOD THE SHIT THAT HAPPENED WHEN I LEFT.

B, a kind-of-a-friend-but-also-not-really (she said something that offended me) showed me something. The group and all the messages when I left.

Oh Yukii and Kami are teacher's pets!!

They believe that by sitting on the front they'll be likeable for the teachers. (We have myopia, and I have astigmatism too)

They believe they're smarter than us!(Again, I think wanting to learn is a smart move)

We wanted to show someone or to just laugh at them, but she told us to not tell anybody, because then she'll be a victim too. I understand, I really do. I used to be like that but, I also want to defend myself and talk, and I don't want K to be alone on being hated by everyone, I also wanna be hated if she's going to be hated on :(((

And, today, we had class with the same teacher, she's the biology teacher by the way. And she started with an ESI (integral sexual education?) class. Oh lord. I knew where this was going.

The class was about emotions. Oh good lord. I KNEW WHERE THIS WAS GOING.

So, she told us about how sometimes we bottle up emotions, and suddenly explode on others. And how this affects us. And then she said there's a problem in this group we need to solve, she went into what happened the day before. And then, tomatogirl speaked up.

Yukii and Kami don't want to integrate themselves in this group! We don't know what they're thinking, and they don't want to talk to us!

Huh I wonder why.

She talked about how it felt like I said that 'cause I believe i'm smarter than Riverfanboy is (Wanting to do things yourself IS a smart move! Forgive me.) and that I do not understand that everyone learns at their own pace.

Girl believe me, I know, I (possibly?) have an attention disorder, and last year I barely passed exams.

So Riverfanboy said he also felt that way, and that I gave him blurry photos. I talked, and said the truth.

HE NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME THE PHOTOS WERE BLURRY.

So, this girl I'll call eviltwinsister cuz she has the same name as Kami but w a C and she's a basic asf girl who bullies anyone who's different, FINALLY said something good!

She said that Riverfanboy is always rude to me. Yay!! Someone says the truth.

Tomatogirl kept trying to make me the bad one, she said that he asked me to re-send the photos and I told him that. The teacher or I (I can't remember) said the obvious which was THAT HE NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME THE PHOTOS WERE BLURRY. And then she went Oh yeah you're right sorry No you're not babe don't hide it!!

So then they used another weapon, me and K being classroom representatives and NOT being on the group!

This one was easily broken down as Kammi told the teacher how they didn't say ANYTHING IMPORTANT and that we have a broadcast list for the class. They were REALLY trying to demonize us.

Then with the teacher, they got to the conclusion of being nicer and using classrooms to ask stuff too.

Then we talked with the teacher, just me and Kami alone.

K mostly, told the teacher that THEY REFUSED TO THINK OF WHAT THEY WERE DOING WRONG. That they literally bully us for how we dress (mostly to Kami though) and how they even bullied her for her sexuality, and the fact that B is FUCKING SCARED of them. Anddd....yeahhh....the teacher was on our side! WOOHOOO!!!! OF COURSE IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN THOUGH WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG?? THEY'RE THE ONE'S WHO DON'T LET US LEARN

So...the teacher accepted our decision to change classes, which she had to anyways because why would we listen to her. And...that's kind of all. I hope.

I survived everyone, you can too!! HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TOO!!!!!!!!!

31/5/25

We had to go to the cementery yesterday, and oh good lord

First of all, the teachers were disrespectful. Someone was moving the graves, and a teacher went "oh look at the little dead people"

Hey, so that's probably someone's mom. Someone's dad. Someone's child.

And he kept saying "let's catch some ghosts!!" we aren't the fucking ghostbusters man. I get it, this is an old cementery and also a museum, BUT STOP IGNORING IT'S A CEMENTERY!!!

And when we passed through Eva Perón's pantheon, which me and a friend were supossed to talk about, guess what? HE BARELY LETTED US TALK!! AND HE WAS SO RUSHED TO GO AND SEE THE DUARTE'S PANTHEON FOR LIKE 2 SECONDS

My friend wanted to bring her flowers, and pray for her, but guess what??? THEY FUCKING LEFT US ALONE and uhh...I might have rushed her to pray but like, the cementery is big and I don't want to get lost...

But they should have also given us more time to look around! AN HOUR ISN'T FUCKING ENOUGH!

Sooo, something happened but I won't say because I don't know if my friend would like it because maybe it's a bit personal :p

We told the teachers to have a bit more empathy. THEY JUST SAID "OH BUT IT'S NOT MY FAMILY, SO I DON'T CARE."

WHAT.

Imagine if it was YOUR grave, would you like people pointing at you and going "oooohhh a little dead person!!" and people started making rumors about you, laughing. You wouldn't like it would you?

Well, even if you'd like it, that doesn't mean others would. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP!!

Then the teacher procceeded to talk less rushed about a dictator than of Eva Perón who fought for people like HIM'S RIGHTS. Ew.

And he even called the people who murdered him haughty? HE DESERVED TO DIE!! HE WAS A FUCKING DICTATOR MAN AND HE ALSO KIDNAPPED EVA'S BODY

And my clasmmates...good lord...

They said the N-word to a pantheon, broke something in the cementery, and kept trying to look at the bodies on the pantheons, cracking jokes. THEY ANGER ME SO FUCKING MUCH.

I hope a spirit comes up to them and gives them a good beat up. I HATE THEMMMMMMMMMMMMMM AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

But on the good side, uh, I made a guestbook!!

go...sign it....I guess...hehe.....uh...yeah..that's all for today I think..

29/5/25

Sooo, everything went...surprisingly well.

I just shared my sandwiches with the people I liked, and some others. Anddd...today I had to talk to the psychiatrist. It was...something. I think I expressed myself wrong about my sleeping patterns, but, other than that they increased my dosis of Aripiprazole. It kind of scares me, because she warned me about abstinency and...isn't it going to be worse with a bigger dosis? But oh well, this is for my well being I guess...and others too. So...yeah...that's about it.

Now, onto page updates, I put a bit of the Lacey's Petshop explanation on the lacey games lore page and added the new devlog page!! I'm so happy, there was A ROCÍO REFERENCE!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!!!!!

28/5/25

I had put something that was a misunderstanding, if you read that, don't worry everything is ok now.

Today I updated the lacey games lore page, now it has a bit more of the Lacey's diner story explained.

And that's all. Tomorrow I have to bring food to share with my classsmaaateeeeesss bullshit, wish me luck.

27/5/25

So, i'm just going to cover the stuff I added today, as nothing interesting happened and also, it's quite late as i'm updating this, it's...9 PM...that's late for me....

Sooo, I started the page with the lacey games lore explained. It's going to take a while to complete, as the lore and stuff I have to cover is...A LOT...and i'm not even in the half of everything I need to cover.

So with that said, I really have nothing more to tell you. See you next day whoever is reading this!

26/5/25

So...today was...wild to say the least...

I don't know how to describe everything that happened...

So...today I got called a bitch by this girl I'll call redgirl. And my friend, who I'll call...uhh...K cuz I doubt she'd care about me mentioning her here, also got called a bitch I think.

So...uhh about what happened to K, she just told Redgirl that it's not respectful to not bring the homework when she was complaining about the lack of respect I think, and me? Well, today the school did an event for the 25th of may, and an idiot on the history hour asked "What was the event about?" I sarcastically answered "the 9th of july" and REDGIRL CAME OUT OF A FUCKING TRASHBIN (not literally) AND WENT "OHHH IS THAT A JOKE YOU BITCH??? GUYS LAUGH SHE MADE A JOKE!!" LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU! But oh well, she kept making fun of me, I shut up cuz I don't genuinely care, she can go on with being stupid ig. I just wish I reacted more at times...

But that's not the point, and warning, if you're sensitive to gorey descriptions this might be the time to click off my blog.

So...while walking to my extracurricular english class, a very disturbing scenario came to mind. Redgirl and her friend throwing me to the road, and a car passing over my head. I saw everything. The crunch, the head desfigurating the bone breaking it was...ugh I can't write about this anymore but i'm using it as a way to archive what I want to tell my therapist...

I'm thinking I might have some sort of...anxiety disorder...maybe...lord...I fantasize about gorey scenarios a lot. Like one time, I fantasized about hitting this annoying girl I'll call Ponytailgirl with a metal bottle until I saw the inside of her head. My thoughts have been getting horribly disturbing, and even though sometimes I have those fantasies I feel horrible afterwards. And it's worse when I fantasize about myself; harming myself, getting hit by a car, getting stabbed, lord. I won't sleep tonight will I.

It's...scary. It scares me. The therapist said as long as I don't do it it's ok but lord these thoughts haunt me. I...I'll end it here ok? I'll end this entry here. It's too much. I wanted to describe more but...I can't, I want to distract myself as quickly as I can..

But if it helps ME, today I made a page for my invader zim comic and an art gallery!!!

So those are the updates...see you tomorrow...wish me goodnight ig...

25/5/25

FELIZ 25 DE MAYO!!! Today I finished translating and publishing a chapter of my fanfic

and then I took a nap after eating asado, when I remembered...

"Hey...what about my page?"

AND SOOO THIS PAGE HAD A HUGE ASS RE-MODEL!!!!! I fixed so many stuff, and added a whole ass new section a whole ass Rocío fanart page

and I feel SOSOSO excited to do more stuff here!! I feel like I won't sleep tonight!! And that scares me...cuz I HATE wanting to sleep and not feeling sleepy, and I'll hate more feeling excited to do more stuff, so this part is the last thing I'll add today. Goodnight everyone!!!